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Severus Snape is tired of the lies. ([info]fortiscadere) wrote,
@ 2009-08-14 23:17:00

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Entry tags:!private, !public, agatha, friends: pepper, that damn order: moody, the death eaters

14 August 1980.
[Warded Private, Agatha may read]

It seems we are abandoning any pretence at being a free nation. Perhaps that has been true since the borders were closed, but now we are going to be reading people's post and making notes of individuals who subscribe to The Quibbler.

Eventually we will push the population too far. I feel as if that may have already begun to happen, but eventually we begin to infringe on the larger population's rights, and once we began to do that, they will revolt. The question is whether that will happen immediately or if it is still months or even years away. And in the meantime good people like the Longbottoms are destroyed and I worry whether we can last long enough.

It is perhaps a wonder that I was able to manage even a misty Patronus charm so much unpleasant has been on my mind of recent. And if I should be discovered and our wards should not hold


[Warded to Pepper]
It was on the WWN so this isn't particularly a large secret, but rather something to be aware of. They're having us search the owl post for any mention of terrorist activity and making a list of people who receive The Quibbler.

I don't doubt people will continue to receive The Quibbler through some means or another, but it is something to be aware of. The post - even were it ever safe - is certainly no longer so.


[Warded to Moody]
This was on the WWN so it isn't particularly a secret, but I wanted to make certain you and anyone you are working with is aware that Death Eaters will be looking through the Post, and making lists of people who are receiving The Quibbler, etc.


[Warded to Agatha]
So long as we do not have a fidelius charm on our property there's some danger even at home.

You said you could feign illness for a while, but eventually that would prove not true, wouldn't it then? What if this lasts for more than a month or two? What if it lasts for any number of months? We could fake it for nine months but if you don't have a child at the end of it, we can't really fake that, can we?


It's rather difficult to believe that Autumn is drawing ever nearer. I hope we will be able to have a proper school for children to attend by September.


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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 06:48 am UTC (link)
I know. It's been on my mind. Feigning illness will work for now but yes, we do need to make some long-term decision is you can't find someone to put the Fidelius on the house. Even if you do we should think of something as a plan B so to speak.


And thank goodness I only ever read the Quibbler every now and then.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 06:57 am UTC (link)
Unfortunately I'd like to continue reading it at the moment. I suppose I could always confiscate one as evidence, and check it out as part of my duties. It's sad when it's the most truthful news source out there.


You could stop taking the potion. I mean, as Plan B.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 07:02 am UTC (link)
It is bizarre to think that the Quibbler is the best place for the truth. Bizarre and sad. But good on them for having the courage to tell the truth.


Um, Severus, as much as I would dearly love to have your children, now is hardly the best time, especially if we get found out in some way.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:06 am UTC (link)
Yeah. I need to figure out where Libitina Quirke is hiding right now. I hope she's hiding somewhere safe enough. Sending her an owl doesn't really seem like the best idea either, but I'm guessing she doesn't live where she used to.


No. I just - But it would give you a legitimate reason to be home bound for nine months. I'm at a loss Agatha-

I don't want to be doing this in a year. Or two. Or three. If this isn't over in months I want to leave.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 07:15 am UTC (link)
She wouldn't reply if you warded something to her?


I know it would but it would also add several more layers of complication to an already complicated situation. Plus add an extra hostage to the equation. Yes, it would give me a legitimate reason to stay at home but I just don't think it's the wisest option at the moment.

Neither do I. How? The borders are closed.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:22 am UTC (link)
Oh. Yeah she might.


No. You're right. I know. I don't even want I just - we could only promote that idea for a few months before it's going to have to come out that we were mistaken and you're not pregnant and at that point we'll have to make that clear or it will be suspicious that we don't have a child at the end of nine months. I have been thinking about this all day Agatha, I can't think of anything else. I'm running out of ideas.



They aren't closed to Muggles.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 07:30 am UTC (link)
But we do have those few months. We don't need to make a decision tonight. We can keep the illness ruse running for the moment while we look at our options and see what happens with everyone else. For all we know an opportunity will arise in the next couple of weeks or so that we can take advantage of.


That's true. Martha and I did go into the Muggle world on occasion while we were travelling but that was mostly just to eat at restaurants or cafes or to visit museums and art galleries. We never travelled by Muggle means. I'm not sure I'd be confident I could do that without making a hash of it. And we'd need the proper kind of papers, wouldn't we?

Oh, and let's never talk about this out loud given what happened to the Burkes.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:38 am UTC (link)
I know we do. We should just hold still for a while. I just It'll be fine. We'll both be fine.



I have travelled via Muggle means, although not since I was able to Apparate. Unfortunately I wasn't paying a lot of attention, but I figure I've got a basic memory and anything can be learned if one puts one's mind to it. & I tend to be able to take things in stride and pretend. We would need papers or we could confund, or if it comes down to it use an Imperius, although a confundus ought to cover it, more than likely. And remind me to kiss you later for remembering to be quiet about this.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 07:45 am UTC (link)
We will. We are being careful and wary.


What about your friend Lily Potter? You said she was Muggleborn. Would she be able to help us with details and such if it came to that? Would she be willing?

I think I would much prefer to use a confundus. Using the Imperius seems so wrong really. I couldn't think would really be a situation where the confundus wouldn't be enough surely. And I will most definitely remind you.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:48 am UTC (link)
We are. You're being amazing, Agatha. I didn't think - I mean, this is a huge thing to adjust to and you've taken it admirably.


Yeah, she is. She probably would know, if it came to that. The question is whether she'd be willing to give me that information without telling me I was running away.

Yeah, I'd certainly start with a confundus. There's no reason to use a stronger spell than is necessary for the task.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 07:56 am UTC (link)
I will confess to having moments where I feel like running around in circles, wondering what on earth I'm doing but perhaps I might have had larger doubts if that horrible display hadn't gone up but that... well, that was just... I can't even find the words.


I think if we were leaving things would be bad enough that she might well be contemplating the same thing.

Good.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 08:04 am UTC (link)
I've been having those on and off for the greater part of a year. Eventually they subside - or at least become less prevalent. It's the right thing Agatha, I have to believe that it is. It doesn't make it any less terrifying, but at this point - well, really from the beginning, the only way out seemed to be to go so deeply in and stop them from inside.


I wouldn't want to leave her here so hopefully that would be the case.


Just because I can cast unforgivables, Agatha, doesn't mean that I enjoy it.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 08:15 am UTC (link)
I have to admit that it seems that everytime I see one of the Death eaters or the women write in their journals these days it just seems to reinforce that it's the right thing to do.


Though come to think of it, I'm not sure I want to see the sort of circumstances that would prompt any of us to run.

I know. You wouldn't be fighting against the Death Eaters if you did enjoy casting them.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 08:30 am UTC (link)
I think I always knew there was an underlying arrogance there, but I think it's gotten worse somehow. I don't know, I used to be able to tolerate it much better when I was in school with them all.

I can't imagine they'd be good, although to be perfectly honest I'm almost there. That's hardly very brave of me is it? But Slytherins are not particularly known for their bravery - more known for wanting to stay alive really.

Good. I've done things I'm not particularly proud of, but that's really just it, I'm not proud of them and I'd do just about anything to be able to go back and undo them - undo this. But I guess, if I did that, we wouldn't be sitting here having this conversation, would we? There's at least one good thing that's come out of me becoming a Death Eater, hasn't there then?

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 09:29 am UTC (link)
Maybe because they don't feel like they have to hide it anymore under a veneer of politeness?

Well, I think the same thing so it's hardly just you. But then again Hufflepuffs tend to be pragmatic and one of the most pragmatic responses to this situation is to get out of it.

Nothing is entirely bad and sometimes you have to go through the bad to get to the good. What's the old saying? It's always darkest before the dawn.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 09:45 am UTC (link)
Could be.

I deal much better with pragmatism than false bravado and foolish bravery. And I rather think the dawn must be right away then, cause I can't imagine it getting much darker.



Bed?


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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 10:11 am UTC (link)
I don't think it could possibly be far off. Though that might just be me underestimating the depths to which the Death Eaters can sink to.


Bed sounds like a very good idea.

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Agatha.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 10:14 am UTC (link)
I feel like it's my wishful thinking. Don't underestimate them, Agatha. Never underestimate them.



Then I shall be up momentarily. I want to check the wards first and then I'll give you that kiss I've promised you.

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Severus
[info]agapanthus
2009-08-15 10:19 am UTC (link)
Good advice.


I'll be waiting.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 06:49 am UTC (link)
I'll pass it on. It makes me extremely tempted to keep posting owls with fake suspicious information in them, just to mess with them.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 06:53 am UTC (link)
You might make the suggestion as something to consider as an actual strategy really. You could purposefully plant false rumours using the post - although you'd have to be careful about how and what they were. But if you spin everyone's wheels while they are looking for shadows and ghosts, it would keep their mind off of what's actually happening.

Thanks for the practise the other day, by the way. I think I'm still sore.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 06:58 am UTC (link)
Dropped it in as something that would amuse me. Aloysius is still going with the posters as well, so. Mostly, it would just make me happy.

So am I. Helped to walk it off afterwards so all my muscles didn't seize up. I have bad memories of before I learned to do that in training and waking up in the morning having to go back for more. Not good.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:01 am UTC (link)
Good. Amusement is good and so is anything that distracts and keeps them focused somewhere else is a good thing.

Yeah, I did that too. I'll never forget my first training session with Mr Mulciber. I was hardly able to stir my potions the next morning at work. At least, the training wasn't every day at that point so I had a day or two to let it wear off - but I didn't make the mistake again.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 07:06 am UTC (link)
Practically every day for six months. Well, less towards the end, and never all day, but basically all I did for half a year was train and study and work.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:11 am UTC (link)
We had some every evening, but not every day - and of course it's on top of the work we were doing so it couldn't precisely be everyday. Every weekend though - not good for dating.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 07:14 am UTC (link)
But you're purists. Purists don't date, they court their arranged partners!

I do not find it a surprise that basically everyone I know from work dates within the department. Rufus and Amelia, Kate and Gawain, Elle and Gummy, me and Jo... And the ones married to civilians never exactly had the best examples of wedded bliss.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:17 am UTC (link)
Well. Yeah. And then they marry them too.


It makes it easier, I'm guessing. I mean, I lucked out with Agatha, I think.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 07:23 am UTC (link)
Yeah. I know it's hard to do that job and have a relationship. Even when you're not bringing work home with you, there were times when I was there twenty hours in a row, went home and went straight to bed and back to work in the morning. If we were lucky I'd catch Jo for lunch. Relating to a civilian would've been hard, especially one who'd never seen how ugly the world is. Makes me look at some of those society girls and wonder how their husbands can stand it, coming home after dealing with death and destruction and they're all "oh, should we redecorate the parlour?"

Plus I used to leave crime scene photos around the place so I could take a break and come back to them.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:28 am UTC (link)
I think there's a certain amount of exhaustion of the horrific, and being able to come back and pretend things are normal - but then I'm probably not a good judge as I tend to have even extra layers of lies. All things considered though, I feel as if Agatha and I have had an easier relationship since I told her. Then again, I just told her so who knows what it'll do in a month or two.

I'm fairly confident none of the girls I've dated would have been all right with that.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 07:50 am UTC (link)
Not as bad as the last time someone tried to send me severed body parts in the post. I wrote a note saying I'd bring it in in an hour and sat down to have lunch.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 07:57 am UTC (link)
Merlin. I've never understood the severed body part fetish thing. It's just so - Over the top.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 08:01 am UTC (link)
It's boring. Do they really think a foot is going to upset anyone who's worked in the DMLE since this started? The only thing that came close to it was when the crazy little vampire girl sent me an eye she'd mashed up with a stick, and even that was only for a moment when I first opened it. And that was before the Godric's Hollow fire, definitely. Maybe before the third guy I had to torture... I can't remember.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 08:11 am UTC (link)
It's boring and it makes us all look like monsters. But frankly, the ones that do that are the monsters. I half think they love this war deep down. It allows them to do shit they'd never get away with in peacetime all for the joy of being able to torture and kill and maim.

You get immune to it all after a while. I'm numb half the time.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 08:16 am UTC (link)
I passed numb a long time ago. I'm pretty much just down to amusement and annoyance. I'd worry about how I'll adjust when it's over but I wo don't think I'll live to see it.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 08:51 am UTC (link)
You will. We're both going to. I need at least one other former Slytherin that isn't going to want me dead when all this ends.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 08:53 am UTC (link)
hahaha luck with that. Though I still can't believe Bellatrix hasn't been at me about repeatedly going on about what a crap Slytherin she is.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 08:59 am UTC (link)
Well she's utterly lacking in subtlety - then again, I think most everyone is right now.

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Severus
[info]pickledpepper
2009-08-15 09:01 am UTC (link)
If she was ever subtle, she was really good at it, because I don't remember it.

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Pepper.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-15 09:03 am UTC (link)
Ha!

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Severus.
[info]sapience
2009-08-15 11:21 pm UTC (link)
Thank you. I will spread the word. I'm afraid I haven't had a chance to keep up with the WWN this week. Hogwarts is a bit cut off and all.

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Moody.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-16 01:52 am UTC (link)
That's why I mentioned it - I didn't know if you were or not.

How are things going?

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Severus.
[info]sapience
2009-08-16 10:49 pm UTC (link)
Not well.

Things still relatively safe on your end?

We're planning at attack on the rehabilitation centre. I suggest you steer clear.

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Moody.
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-17 06:07 am UTC (link)
Yeah. Still relatively safe so far as I know.


Thanks for the warning, although it was unnecessary as I was working on another task and otherwise preoccupied. Apparently the fact that I did not respond has earned me a demotion. I confess I do not understand half of what the Inner Circle is doing most of the time.

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Severus.
[info]sapience
2009-08-17 06:08 am UTC (link)
Good.

Maybe we ought to have used a ranking system. Would have kept people in line.

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Moody
[info]fortiscadere
2009-08-17 06:17 am UTC (link)
To be honest sir, the thought has occurred to me before. Although I rather think it works better when demoting based on actual stupidity or disloyalty, rather than circumstantial happen stance.

On the other hand, it gives me a good excuse to go 'assist' with the rebuilding of the rehabilitation centre to get in good with Travers.

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